well this was the wildest weekend I've had in ages.
Amanda, Jess, Mackenzie and I are all finally fully vaccinated so we all felt comfortable gathering for a sewing day. It was heavenly to see my friends again and it was downright strange now normal it felt. If I closed my eyes and took a breath it was as if 2020 hadn't happened at all. All was right in the world and I got to laugh, vent, and snark. We watched the entierty of Bridgerton. Thankfully Jess has seen it before so while we talked over it, yelled at costumes and bad ideas of birth control she could catch us back up on plot points we missed. I can't say I had any interest in watcching it alone, but it was the perfect trash to watch with girlfriends and be aghast about haha. I event got a suprising amount done on my new regency short gown. I cut it out on Saturday morning before I headed over and managed to get the bodice assembled and lined (I used the jacket construction techniques from costume close up), the neckline hemmed and the CF edges hemmed. Which I thought was impressive considering we also had tea delivered from the tea house, 8 hours of trash TV and pizza...
Aubry organized a zoom sillouette party which I was both excited for and nervous. I wore my Victorian tea gown as I feel pretty in it, I put make up on for the first time since November as I thought I might shoot photos but then I didn't feel like putting on shoes or petticoats so I didn't bother. But I was shocked by how...un RED I looked. My face is very angry with constant N95s at work. I have rosacia everwhere and skin breakdown on my nose. I think mine turned out really cute, not as stunning as others but I just didn't have as exciting an outfit. Then we after-partied on Jenny-Rose's fancy paid zoom account till...9pm? after that but before 10pm. and frankly that was also lovely just hanging out with Aubry, Jenny-Rose, Sara and Me shooting the shit. I also sewed the drawstring channel for the neckline.
I woke up fucking on fumes. I'm not used to any social interaction and I had two full days. It was amazing but I was also feeling very dissociated. But no rest for the weary, we had to take Ellie to the vet for her 5 year check up. She's very healthy and was thrilled with all the attention and love. Probably less so with her vaccines but had forgotten those by the time she got to the car. I came home and napped. I sewed one and a hafl skirt seams and ordered pizza for dinner. Now we're watching time team while I stress about work tomorrow.
I've been generally doing pretty well with COVID and mental health stuff. First it was just "keep Rob from losing his shit" mode where he didn't leave the house and I did all the shopping and we were all in lock down and the acute phase of quarantine. Then we entered the chronic phase of quarantine where we just kept plodding along. We take trips to the store once or twice a week, I zoom with friends and I really rely on seeing friends at work to feel like I see people...but this weekend my parents got home from a week long vacation with my sister's family (they live much closer) and I couldn't go because i'd have to quarantine for 2 weeks upon returning home. Working with a fragile population just means I have to be careful...and I broke a little. there was a lot of crying. And if I'm honest with myself, I think I've reached my limit for "lack of social"
I spent three days when I was supposed to be cleaning the house, shooting and editing a youtube video, sewing ANYTHING, canning pickles...you name it ANYTHING, staring at my computer, crying, not showering, watching horrible romantic comedies and laying on the couch in an awkward position till I actually felt nauseated on Sunday night. Oh and did I mention fucking up my sleep schedule? I went to bed after 1am every night this weekend and that means I'll have a really hard time righting the ship to go to work tomorrow...
I did finally this evening after dinner get my butt up to my sewing room. It was significantly cooler up there after two not-horrible days and taped together and cut out of paper the new Virgil's Fine Good's patter I'm a pattern tester for. But then I couldn't find my fabric scissor...it's a good thing I have work tomorrow, it really is the thing helping me stay sane.
Me "Okay I'll do 18th century mitts great!" *Logs onto the computer and looks at Cocovid schedule* SOMEONE IS TEACHING THAT EXACT THING ALREADY I seriously can't catch a break and I QUIT.
Also I'm both really glad we didn't go to Gettysburg and worried about Dave as he told me he's been having high fevers since 4pm yesterday and I'm legit worried about him :-/
FUCK YOU 2020 I QUIT
STILL have no plan for a video for Sunday.
I'm supposed to be in Gettysburg filming my super awesome cocovid video right now...we had made it to the KOP service station when I pulled off so Rob could grab a coffee and went to tell Dave our ETA. He's on day 2 of congestion after going camping with his family for a week....fuck....I went through a range of "pretend I didn't see this and don't tell Rob."..."blame it on Rob's germ based OCD"....."you know the right thing to do is not to go because you work with medically fragile kids AND your husband has OCD and you owe it to him to not cause him panic attacks"...2020, you can't even let me have one nice thing. :-( Told Dave we just couldn't swing it and turned around. Consoled myself with Sonic for lunch and were home before we would have made it to Gettysburg. Then we immediately UNPACKED a very full car, that I hat just magically packed 2 hours ago. Pulled curlers out of my hair in the sonic parking lot so I'd look like less of a mad woman. Came home and poked the internet sadly and took a nap.
Now I'm stuck with "what the hell do I do for a Cocovid video?" I could do nothing I suppose, but I'm on the schedule and that seems like shitty of me. Rob's tossed me several hilarious video ideas, but they're more of "Robin's channel" videos and not exactly what I think fits Cocovid as I want it to be instructional? So far the only ideas I have and sort of like but don't love are 1. turning my most popular blog entry "how to make 18th century mitts" into a video. But does anyone still DO 18th century? 2. I bought that gap blouse planning to do a video on how to make it a little more historically accurate (put in a CB closure, collar stays, either narrow the sleeves or shorten them unsure which. again don't LOVE any of those like I LOVED our photography video...3. I could do a video about my new 1890s wrapper how it isn't a wash dress and what did women wear to do work in the 19th century on a farm, but I'd have to do a lot more research so far all I've figured out is that "wash dress" is much more a "ready to wear" equivalent and not really a "get dirty on the farm chores" idea and I can't find any references pre 1900...*sigh*